Me: I’m afraid I’m a bit of a mess today. Sorry.
Nell: No sorries. Not now.
Me: I can’t seem to stop crying.
Nell: Then don’t. Cry as much as you like.
Me: Alex was only 58. That’s far too young to die.
Nell: It is.
Me: Her little grandson Tobias turned 3 yesterday.
Nell: I know.
Me: She was so proud of him.
Nell: She was.
Me: He’s such a happy child and a real bundle of joy.
Me: She loved him so much and he adored her.
Nell: He did.
Me: She was a wonderful grandmother.
Nell: She was.
Me: Her daughter is heartbroken that Alex isn’t going to be in his life any longer.
Nell: She’s watching over them now.
Me: But she should be here. This is so unfair.
Nell: I’m afraid life isn’t always fair.
Me: Tobias keeps asking where she is.
Nell: It’s hard for a child to understand.
Me: I’m not sure I can find a pocketful of happiness today.
Nell: I think you can if you really try.
Me: Walking on our beach with you all is something to be grateful for.
Nell: Yes, it is. We’re very lucky to live where we do.
Me: And I’m surrounded by love.
Nell: You are.
Me: How am I going to get through tomorrow?
Nell: Just trust in yourself. You’re much stronger than you think.
Me: My sister Charlotte is devastated. She and Alex were very close in years.
Nell: They were.
Me: I need to be there for her tomorrow.
Nell: You will be. She knows that.
Me: And for Alex’s three children.
Nell: You will get through this. I promise you. You’re not doing this alone.
Me: I know.
Nell: We’re right here by your side.
Me: Yes. Thank you.