Me: I’m glad we went to the activity field.
Nell: So am I.
Me: You dogs were able to stretch your legs and enjoy the sunshine.
Nell: And you and Kev walked around the field quietly hand in hand.
Me: We did. It was a little haven of peace.
Nell: It’s so busy down here at the moment that going down to the sea isn’t really an option.
Me: No. I was thinking how for me the world has stopped since Alex died but for others the world is still turning.
Nell: Life goes on.
Me: Yes. It has to.
Nell: It’s Easter weekend and the sun is shining. People are enjoying their holiday.
Me: And I’m genuinely pleased that they are.
Nell: I know.
Me: I’m finding all the messages of support hugely comforting. People are so kind.
Nell: Yes, they are. You just have to let them.
Me: I learnt that when I had my cancer diagnosis.
Nell: It’s important to reach out to others.
Me: It is and so many have lost loved ones. My heart goes out to them.
Nell: It was lovely to see Charlotte, Naughty Nigel and Boo.
Me: Yes. We talked about Panda and our happy memories of her.
Nell: Poppy is going to make a roast on Easter Sunday and Charlotte is going to join us.
Me: That’s nice.
Nell: It’s important that you girls spend time together.
Me: ‘The girls’ is what my mother always said when she was talking about us.
Nell: She did.
Me: Only now there are only two of us. Not three.
Nell: Yes.
Me: How did we get here? Why did we have to lose her so soon?
Nell: Life can be cruel.
Me: We’re broken without her, Nell.
Nell: I know and I’m so sorry.
