Me: Why are you all watching me? Is Poppy on her hind legs?
Nell: Have you finished writing?
Me: I don’t know where to begin.
Nell: Yesterday the hospital called asking you to come to a consultation about your results on 31st October.
Me: I knew this was bad news because I was expecting a letter and they only ask you in if they have bad news.
Nell: You were extremely distressed so Kev told you to call them back and ask to speak to a doctor.
Me: They didn’t want to tell me over the phone but when I explained that I knew it was cancer and I was imagining the worst they were understanding and a doctor told me the results.
Nell: It is skin cancer and it is malignant melanoma.
Me: But we’ve caught it early enough and it hasn’t spread.
Nell: It’s also under 1mm thick which makes it low risk.
Me: I’ll have to have another operation in the next few weeks as they want to do a Wide Local Excision to remove the area around it to make sure they’ve got everything.
Nell: But then it’s yearly checkups.
Me: And I’ll need to check my lymph nodes regularly.
Nell: You must also check for any signs of a change in moles or marks.
Me: Yes. Noticing that and going to the doctor has saved my life.
Nell: And telling everyone about your cancer journey will save others.
Me: Please go and see a doctor if there’s anything you’re worried about.
Nell: So, even though you have cancer this is still a cause for celebration.
Me: It is.
Nell: And we’re all behind you.
Me: I know and you’ve been amazing.
Nell: Those are tears of relief.
Me: Yes. Sorry.
Nell: No sorries. Not today.